come to dinner with me we'll walk down the main street all dressed up we'll make time for coffee i know the caffein makes you sad just this one won't you do it for me because up in heaven you're a show in if you open up your heart to me

i was lost at twenty three oh you meant the whole world to me and i wish i didn't care so much i wish i didn't miss your touch i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and i can't see your face without getting too upset i wish your happiness didn't come at my expense but i hope you're happy nonethelessso tell me more about how you wanna die how you feel that way every night well i feel the same way too well i feel the same way too so tell me more about how you wanna die how you feel that way every night well i feel the same way too and it's all because of you and all because of my fucked up emotions i can't step back step back away replay it in my head every single day how i thought i found a way out of my broken heart and lonely spirit well i guess i'll stay this way forever i've tried everything in every weather rain sun shine hail sleet and snow i've tried crack booze weed coke and smokes i've tried talking to a therapist three months of rehab and one long list of all the things that i'm grateful for good friends a job and hardwood floors the dating scene was not for me nor getting revved up on bull and acting silly well i wish i could control myself before telling you more about how i wanna die how i feel this way every night and all the holes i've punched in my door now my wrist fist brain and heart are all sore and i can talk to you all damn night about all the ways i wanna die and i may wanna say it's all your fault i may wanna say it's all your fault but i've been this way forever and it's never getting better yes i've been this way forever and it's never getting better

please tell me you want to die i don't want to be alone tonight please tell me you want to die i don't want to be alone tonight i’ll go home tonight if it will make you happy i don’t mind if it means you’ll get a good night’s rest you can cry and I’ll be by your side but you don’t have to be in my arms tonight if you don't want to are we supposed to be together three thousand miles away, we both said yes are we supposed to be together with you I’m always at my best i’ll wait and fight through all of hell with you if it takes this whole heart, well this heart is yours but I’ll make sure you drink your water and keep a cool head and ill make sure i keep mine so lets make it right this time so lets end on the tonic and I wish those candle lit nights would last forever and that l could do more to help make you feel better but if I must just wait here for you to come around then I’ll wait with all the patience that I got and I’ll shake to the question of if i think I’m supposed to be with you and my answer never changes I do, I do ill go home tonight if that will make you happy but in my room ill lay and think of you and whisper two soft words repeated twice "I do, I do" and I’ll wait for you

if I had a dollar for every fucking asshole who told me to go down the road instead of crossing the street i’d have enough to buy myself a rope and wrap it around my neck attach it to the door and race myself to the floor erase myself from this earth erase myself i can’t seem to justify my battles won as being accomplishments for lack of a better pill i take none the best of the worst they say the lowest of lows plastic mattresses that i call home my own private throne in the gutter your own private throne in my head robin williams death was not in vain but what happened to all the others that died that day i’m just a little curious about all the superficial cuts they found on his wrists and why didn’t he go down the road and why no one asked him so so tell me please god what’s the point in all of this when my life will just be overshadowed by one like his and if my love won’t live on in any other heart but mine what’s the point in all of this when my heart is dying so let’s pretend that suicide doesn’t exist and it’s just depression killing these kids happy long fulfilling lives are only for the ignorant you followed your way to my heart so don’t even pretend you don’t know that’s its beating we’ll always be together you were at the centre of all of this and i wish you had given me one last kiss goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, instead of sending me one last text telling me of all your regrets well i hope you know i had many that i didn’t fight harder for you that i didn’t fight harder for me to that i didn’t fight harder for you that i didn’t fight harder for me to goodbye, goodbye, goodbye this is the last song that i’ll ever sing you were the last verse out of everything in my fucked up life razor blades and potential wives this is the encore you didn’t ask for it but I wanted more can you do me one favour look me in the eyes and tell me how it feels to love her how does it feel to love her how does it feel to have her love you back do you love her like you never loved yourself I know I love her like I’ll never love myself