how many times have i said "I love you" in the backseat of your car how many times have i seen your profile in the photo booth so far how many times have we rode our bikes to the ihop late at night down down the big hill by your house we watched the moon together some sinatra just for us from the tape deck late at night as the rain sprays on your face through the window while we fight i really tried to see it your way but I was tired and it was late so I lied when I said mañana 'cause our tomorrow never came

i was lost at twenty three oh you meant the whole world to me and i wish i didn't care so much i wish i didn't miss your touch i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and i can't see your face without getting too upset i wish your happiness didn't come at my expense but i hope you're happy nonetheless so tell me more about how you wanna die how you feel that way every night well i feel the same way too well i feel the same way too so tell me more about how you wanna die how you feel that way every night well i feel the same way too and it's all because of you and all because of my fucked up emotions i can't step back step back away replay it in my head every single day how i thought i found a way out of my broken heart and lonely spirit well i guess i'll stay this way forever i've tried everything in every weather rain sun shine hail sleet and snow i've tried crack booze weed coke and smokes i've tried talking to a therapist three months of rehab and one long list of all the things that i'm grateful for good friends a job and hardwood floors the dating scene was not for me nor getting revved up on bull and acting silly well i wish i could control myself before telling you more about how i wanna die how i feel this way every night and all the holes i've punched in my door now my wrist fist brain and heart are all sore and i can talk to you all damn night about all the ways i wanna die and i may wanna say it's all your fault i may wanna say it's all your fault but i've been this way forever and it's never getting better yes i've been this way forever and it's never getting better

why live why live through a day what's at the end only pain so when you're lying in bed thinking about lying in bed reading a book about lying in bed you should probably ride a bike or take a hike instead why live why live through a day last thing i'll feel in my life most likely pain why live why live through a day last thing i'll feel in my life most likely pain so when you're lying in bed thinking about lying in bed so you start writing a book about lying in bed you should skip to the end and end your life instead why live why live through a day what's at the end only pain why live why live through a day what's at the end only pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain

breathe in for luck breathe in so deep this air is blessed you share with me this night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they race from self control your legs are smooth as they graze mine we're doing fine we're doing nothing at all my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me so won't you kill me so i die happy my heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury or wear as jewellery which ever you prefer the words are hushed lets not get busted just lay entwined here, undiscovered safe in here from all the stupid questions "hey did you get some?” man, that is so dumb stay quiet stay near stay close they can't hear so we can get some my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me so won't you kill me so i die happy my heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury or wear as jewellery which ever you prefer hands down this is the best day I can ever remember i'll always remember the sound of the stereo the dim of the soft lights the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late and this walk that we shared together the streets were wet and the gate was locked so i jumped it and i let you in and you stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it and i knew that you meant it that you meant it that you meant it and i knew that you meant it that you meant it

maybe my good morals are just a product of me trying to fit right in please tell me you want to die 'cause i don't wanna be alone tonight i’ll go home tonight if it will make you happy i don’t mind if it means you’ll get a good night’s rest you can cry and I’ll be by your side but you don’t have to be in my arms tonight if you don't want to are we supposed to be together three thousand miles away, we both said yes are we supposed to be together with you I’m always at my best i’ll wait and fight through all of hell with you if it takes this whole heart, well this heart is yours but I’ll make sure you drink your water and keep a cool head and ill make sure i keep mine so lets make it right this time so lets end on the tonic and I wish those candle lit nights would last forever and that l could do more to help make you feel better but if I must just wait here for you to come around then I’ll wait with all the patience that I got and I’ll shake to the question of if i think I’m supposed to be with you and my answer never changes I do, I do ill go home tonight if that will make you happy but in my room ill lay and think of you and whisper two soft words repeated twice "I do, I do" and I’ll wait for you

hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption winding in and winding out the shine of it has caught my eye and roped me in so mesmerizing so hypnotizing i am captivated i am vindicated i am selfish i am wrong i am right i swear i'm right i swear i knew it all along and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself so clear like the diamond in your ring cut to mirror your intentions oversized and overwhelmed the shine of which has caught my eye and rendered me so isolated so motivated i am certain now that i am vindicated i am selfish i am wrong i am right i swear i'm right i swear i knew it all along and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself so turn up the corners of your lips part them and feel my finger tips trace the moment fall forever defence is paper thin just one touch and I'd be in too deep now to ever swim against the current so let me slip away so let me slip away so let me slip away so let me slip against the current so let me slip away so let me slip away so let me slip away so let me slip away vindicated i am selfish i am wrong i am right i swear i'm right i swear i knew it all along and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself slight hope it dangles on a string like spiderman