if I had a dollar for every fucking asshole who told me to go down the road instead of crossing the street i’d have enough to buy myself a rope and wrap it around my neck attach it to the door and race myself to the floor erase myself from this earth erase myself i can’t seem to justify my battles won as being accomplishments for lack of a better pill i take none the best of the worst they say the lowest of lows plastic mattresses that i call home my own private throne in the gutter your own private throne in my head robin williams death was not in vain but what happened to all the others that died that day i’m just a little curious about all the superficial cuts they found on his wrists and why didn’t he go down the road and why no one asked him so so tell me please god what’s the point in all of this when my life will just be overshadowed by one like his and if my love won’t live on in any other heart but mine what’s the point in all of this when my heart is dying so let’s pretend that suicide doesn’t exist and it’s just depression killing these kids happy long fulfilling lives are only for the ignorant you followed your way to my heart so don’t even pretend you don’t know that’s its beating we’ll always be together you were at the centre of all of this and i wish you had given me one last kiss goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, instead of sending me one last text telling me of all your regrets well i hope you know i had many that i didn’t fight harder for you that i didn’t fight harder for me to that i didn’t fight harder for you that i didn’t fight harder for me to goodbye, goodbye, goodbye this is the last song that i’ll ever sing you were the last verse out of everything in my fucked up life razor blades and potential wives this is the encore
you didn’t ask for it but I wanted more can you do me one favour look me in the eyes and tell me how it feels to love her how does it feel to love her how does it feel to have her love you back do you love her like you never loved yourself I know I love her like I’ll never love myself